Haiz...bad thoughts again.

Just now went to triska,jieleng and eric's blog....When I saw each of their blogs, is like I kind of feel left out. Left out as in, they all go k-ster never call me lor...but nvm since I also never go before...then each of them their blogs all got take picture together de...then is like me, even for friendster or anywhere i dont even have my own pic. People always ask me,"you got pic?" then I really don't like what I answer but I have to...so I said, "no". I really don't know why I am thinking about all the negative things lor...
It's like, the whole class is split into 3 major groups; the chinese 'popular', chinese 'unpopular', and the malays and maybe some that has sub groups within. So is like...ARGH. I'm going crazy. I want to fit in, be nice to everyone, friendly, and the person that everyone likes...but I can't seem to fit in even though apparently there's chatting once in a while on msn...etc.

Feel so sad...but will get over it soon...

ANYWAYS...the class chalet is drawing closer and closer...man...yesterday during MME lecture that ms prethi told us that our school holidays start on the 7 July!! Then the chalet was booked during 3-5July. So is like the whole class is startled because of this news. I was like,
"omigosh. 7th july leh...wat in the world...that adam told us is 1st july lor...if not why we book the chalet during 3-5july....dotts sia."
Lucky adam come in just in time, then we checked with him when exactly is our holidays, 'cause if it really clashes with school then definitely the whole class will still go for the chalet, because firstly everyone contributed it and yah, by human nature who would want to 'throw away' the money by not going for the chalet. I'm not sure of the outcome though, but seems like everything seems to be ok, so that shouldn't be a problem.

If only I had no pimples...more self esteem, no curve hair, talk more, and oiless face...I wouldn't really have this kind of thoughts. But well, this is me, made like this. Sometimes circumstances from the world just hit me and some part of me that is good seem to be lost.
In fact I remember that primary school I used to be very talkative and it was written in my report book. But now, come to think of it if this was told to my current classmates, who would believe it man. They'll probably go, "You...talkative...haha..."

See lah. Bad thoughts again.
But I just don't get it. despite how I see myself and how sometimes my friends see me, I actually got an ex...and even though we break up le, she told me she still haven't give me up yet and that she has already rejected 5guys. I mean, am I that good? 5guys rejected just because she hasn't got over me yet. LOL. I'm being so...BHB. but, this is what she told me.

ok, need to sleep le. i shall update the next week.