Another scenerio has happened in the life of a person around me...I really feel so sad for her to go through such pain and torture of life. But still as a friend, I can't do anything to help her. What's done was done..She tried to numb the pain within her using cuts on the physical body...I can really empathize with her...feel what she felt, do what she did, etc. It's totally too much for a person to bear.

If I were in her shoes, I would have appeared on news today that I was found on the floor, in a pool of blood...(wait, i live on the 2nd floor...tats too exaggerated...). She shared with me problems with a guy whom she is intimately close with and her family problem. Notice that's it's only typed as "family problem" because she shared one thing with me only...but I believe that there are many more problems that led to her death yesterday...
Don't be mistaken though...not physical death.
This scenerio then dawns on me that how would life be without God for me? Most probably I would have ended up the same way in the past...

Well, if the person I'm referring to is reading this...just want to say that I myself go through this kind of problems...family disagreement, ugly insults from friends...etc. But one thing that is different between how things is solved is that I can always go to God...give my burdens to Him, and He exchanges it for peace in my heart. Though the problem may still be there, the attitude towards it is different. There's a change in the way one sees the problem. I call that the Big Exchange...

For those that are reading this but may disagree with me feel free to voice out since this is a democratic country but bearing in mind that it is to be in a civilized tone...what's there to disagree anyway...

That was one sad senerio...But I have another friend who is also a christian that has a total change over.

Yes, I mean TOTAL CHANGE. Not going to name names...but this female(wow...another one...) friend of mine has gone through 3 stages of change as far as I know.
1.the naive stage(bah...u guessed it...),
2.The "ah lian" stage,
3. The God-fearing stage.

Not going to go much into details for the naive stage but as far as I know, she was in the same school as me...very "shallow-thinking", gets twisted very easily by people's opinions,etc.
After 2years of not being in the same class as her, suddenly we had a chat on the phone. I was overwhelmed. Shocked. Stunned. Or any other adjective u can think of. Being a history student, I can sense that the tone of speech was very gangster-like...Let's say an example...
A:Hey B, so how have you been doing?
B: aiyah, everyday go out lor...slack...hang out with friends...wa sia..then my friends they all go clubbing then so sad I cannot go...what the f***! Haiz..sian 1/2 lor...then that stupid father...always argue with my mother...walao feel like slapping him in the face arh...he think he who arh...can anyhow bully people..."

The dialouge above is just a plain example, even if it did happen it was just a matter of coincidence.

Anyways, back to the point..The main focus is not aobut the speech spoken, but the drastic change from a naive person to someone who is "acting" someone(definitely not her character) in her life, at least that's what I feel. It was only recently that she told me she had been going to CHC Emerge 2006. She was there for all 4 days. Think she enjoyed it alot...

To be continued...